Building Your Confidence and Sex Appeal

I talked about eliminating negative self-talk in my last blog You are Enough. Stop feeding Your Negative Thoughts. I have developed a negative view of myself. For me, I would describe it as always feeling like a child. I felt like I would never grow up. Part of the reason was due to society, treating me differently. If I were standing next to another adult, a stranger would always talk to them instead of me. Even if the stranger was asking questions about me. The question was directed at my friend/partner. So, I never felt like an adult, let alone a sexual adult. I was always cute and sweet little Angela or Angie. I also learned that I hate being called Angie because it reminded me of being a little girl. So today, I have had to learn the confidence to tell people, “My Name is Angela”.  My husband would tell me I was beautiful and sexy. But how do I get to that feeling myself? How do I really feel that way? I want to feel like a confident and sexy adult; how do I get there?

Here are some tips I have used to help me to find my confidence and sex appeal. I hope some of them resonate with you and help you.

THIRTEEN TIPS (Because Thirteen is a lucky number for me!)

1. Acceptance. This is me. This is my body. (my weight, my disability). This is who I will always be. I am tired of feeling like crap. I knew I had to change something. So, I changed my attitude.

When I was young, my grandmother raised me with the idea that I can do anything I set my mind to. I didn’t let my disability hold me back. I tried everything. I wasn’t worried about what other people thought. I was having fun. I did gymnastics as a kid. I danced. I went to a school dance in a wheelchair after one of my surgeries and I danced in my wheelchair. I attempted to ride a bike and I rode one with training wheels for a while. I couldn’t do it without training wheels, but I made the attempt and I had fun.  Interestingly, my body shame didn’t come until I was a teenager. As an adult I had to relearn that confidence I had as a child.

2. Change your attitude. It’s not your body that is holding you back. It is your thoughts about your body. Talk to yourself the way you would talk to your best friend. Begin by just notice when you are using negative self-talk. Then change your words. Replace the negative words with something positive. Stop being you own worst critic. A really good book on Cognitive Behavioral Therapy which helped me with changing my thoughts was Feeling Good, by David Burns.

3. If you want to feel sexy, start with dressing the part. Don’t wait. Start today. Be confident and be adventurous. If you wish you looked like the hot models on tv, start wearing the dress, the fishnet stockings, etc. If you think tattoos are sexy, get yourself a tattoo. I have a few myself. I have a portrait of my late cat Annabell, right on my thigh. So, when I wear that short skirt, I wear it proudly as I show off that tattoo. I can’t wear high heels because I wear braces on my legs, but you know what I can wear? I can wear fishnet stockings under those braces, and I make it work. I look sexy. (I wouldn’t tell you to try something that I haven’t tried myself). I said to hell with waiting to lose my weight. I started wearing the short skirts, showing off my legs, wearing the sexy bathing suit. I was confident.

Confidence is sexy. No matter what size you are. No matter what type of disability you may have.

4. Make time for self-care. I recognize that self-care can be tied into how much energy you have. If you don’t have the energy to shower or to shave your legs, you’re not going want to wear that sexy dress, right? Make self-care a top priority. You will be glad you did.  

5. Focus on your health rather than the appearance of your body. See a mental health therapist if needed. Start taking better care of yourself. Start a little bit each day. You will start to feel better.

I started focusing on my health. I joined a 12 step support group Overeaters Anonymous (OA) dealing with food addiction and my life changed. I realized that there was more going on with me that just my obsession with food. I started looking at the reasons why I was obsessed with food and dealing with those issues. I knew all the nutrition information to lose weight. What I really needed was to look at my thoughts and emotions . OA helps me do that. I got healthier emotionally and physically.

6.  Surround yourself with positive people. Get rid of the people in your life who are negative, who put you down, who put themselves down. They are emotional vampires.

Here is another book suggestion: Emotional Vampires, Dealing with People who Drain You Dry, Albert Bernstein. This book helped me in dealing with people in my life who were negative and were using me. People I had trouble saying no to or staying away from. It helped me realize why I needed to do so and how to do it.

My husband was a deejay and ran karaoke. I loved to sing. I sang in my school choir as a kid. It took me two years to be able to get up on that stage and sing karaoke. But guess what happened? I fell in love with it and the people who would attend. They accepted me. They lifted me up. I no longer see most of them, but I have meet other friends and have found a chosen family by joining and participating in various social activities.

7. Read and look at body positive images on social media

Check out #aeriereal. They are using models with disabilities in their campaigns. There are women in wheelchairs and women with crutches. There is also a woman who uses an ostomy bag. All these women are beautiful as they are modeling bras and underwear.

There are also burlesque dancers who have disabilities that I follow on social media. One in Canada, One in Australia and one in California. The one in California teaches burlesque to people with disabilities. Her name is Jacqueline Boxx. Google Disability and Burlesque. She is amazing!

8. Stay active. As active as you can be.

I have taken Belly Dancing Classes and I loved that. I would love to form a group and learn Burlesque. I am not saying I would become a performer. But I would love to be able to do it for my partner. And I know people who teach Burlesque, so if you are in the Philadelphia area and want to learn, let me know. I’d love to try it.

There are many sports and activities that can be adapted for people with disabilities. I have taken a Tae Kwon Do class. Now I am doing chair yoga. These things keep me active and keep me around other people being social.

9. Ask yourself if it is your body you are really upset about.

Most times when I really get down on myself about my weight, it is related to something else that is bothering me. So, ask yourself, did you have a fight with your partner, or your mother? Did something bad happen at work? What else is going on that is making you angry or upset.

10. Be grateful for your body for all it does for you.

Maybe you have a disability, but there are things that you are able to do. Be grateful and do the things you can do. Everyone can find things they enjoy doing. One of my biggest hobbies is knitting and crochet. But that doesn’t mean I have to sit alone in the house and crochet by myself. I joined a knit and crochet circle. I sometimes crochet at the coffee shop and I have met people there. I am still getting out and socializing.

11. Stop trying to be perfect. Progress not perfection. No one is perfect.

If you are waiting to do something until you have the perfect body, you are never going to do it. Ever notice that people who don’t feel good about themselves are never happy no matter what size they are. Same is true of the opposite. You can choose to feel good about yourself no matter what size you are. You can choose to feel beautiful and sexy. You can also choose the people you surround yourself with. We can’t change the family we grow up around, but we can certainly choose our friends and the people we are close to as we get older. Surround yourself with those people that encourage you to be the best you.

12. Stop comparing yourself to other people. It keeps you in the negative and ugly mood. Jealousy makes you less attractive. Begin by noticing when you are starting to feel envy or jealousy. Keep a journal. I learn so much about myself by journaling

13. Continue to work these tips. Confidence is like being in training. You must continually tell yourself you can do it. Tell yourself you are beautiful. Our negative brains can mess with us, so we need to remind ourselves. Print out some favorite affirmations and post them up by your mirror where you will see them every day.  

I am not saying you need to try all the things I have done. Find your own things. Find your own people. Find a space and find the people that you feel comfortable with. If you enjoy cooking, join a cooking class. Meetup is a great resource. Get out and meet people. Focus on socializing, finding friends and having fun. Be confident in yourself.

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